In Loving Memory of a Dear Friend

She said she first noticed me in Form 1. She said she first waved and said hi to me when I sat by the door in Form 3. But I still cannot remember if she did.

To me, I first knew bubbly Sandra in Form 4. And boy, was she a hell lot of fun. She could fill a room with laughter. She was definitely a bundle of joy. I must say I have never really enjoy high school days before I dropped class. Lol. Well, being in the top class sucked as all the people in there only know one thing and that is study. Gosh. Not a way to live. Imagine having to see people study grammar! Lol. So when I dropped to the second class and met this wonderful person, things changed. I was also reunited with Sara and things got so much better. We would spend thing during relieve classes crapping, joking and I remember scaring Sandra with spooky stories once. Lol. I can still recall her face when I scared her. Lol! Among other fun things done with her was going on the Langkawi trip with her and she stupidly brought her tiny Panasonic phone with her into the water. Lol. Never forgetting also her antics in class! Pulling the head scarf of our Moral teacher (LOL!), sleeping in class (she would drool too), eating endlessly in class (Apollo and fish crackers were her favourite), burping after she eats (lol) and all her never ending nonsense blabbering! Form 5 was the same and after SPM, we thought, that was it for the two of us. We would go our own separate ways.

But, that was not the end as we met in Form 6. She was early on the first day of school. She was sitting in the canteen bench listening to the teacher when I came (late, as usual) and she saw me and I remember how her dull face shone. And she then said to me, "OMG! I am so happy to see you here. You have no idea how happy I am to see you!!!! You are like the shining star you see in movies when something good appears. I could really see the bright light and all." It made me stare at her but I was glad I had her there too. Perhaps the funniest thing about Lower 6 that year is the fact that we both transferred to IJC (it is a convent school in Melaka) for a day! Lol. We hated that school. We spent our first and only day there writing notes actually. We were both taken aback by some girls remarks by the way. They would ask us why we were there and why we did not opt to High School instead because THERE WERE GUYS THERE! Lol. I still remember the look Sandra gave them at that remark and how we would laughed at them for being such 'jakuns' with guys. Lol. Once back home, I told her I was gonna transfer back to SMKBB and she did not decide on that. So we thought, ok. This is it. We are finally gonna go different ways.

But surprise, surprise! Her aunt in Singapore tells her she doesn't need Maths (the main reason we moved to IJC was because they offered Maths) after all and she moved back! So it is yet again, Sandra and Natalia up against the world. Ok ok. It was not that big of a deal. Lol. Anyway, Lower 6 came and gone in a blink and then it was Upper 6 and this is where that one big thing took place, the one thing I cannot seem to forgive myself for. Bloody Christina Aguilera and her stupid concert. We did not talk for the rest of the year because of this. Looking back, I think I hate myself that we fought. Anyway, long story short, I hope somewhere along the road, she forgave me for whatever that took place although I will never be able to apologise for my part of the deal. -Sigh-

Oh yeah! About Form 6, I drove to school and she would take a ride from me at times, most of the times to tuition and she yells in the car so much whenever I was speeding! Lol. I find it annoying then but now I am missing it. My dinosaurs here are too used to my speed that they never seem to yell. Lol. Also, she like to disturb the Malay girls in out class with their 'eh...', never ending powder puffs and calling them 'nenepot'. LOL!! And she called me little human and I had to call her princess for a whole year! Lol!

That was that basically. Since then, we managed to patch things up, I think. We hung out a few times and she came for my little birthday celebration and gave me those killer hugs! Lol. Boy I am gonna miss them.

So to Sandra, although you are no longer on earth, I know you are in a better place now. I may never tell you how sorry I am but please know that I am. I was suppose to have some time to do this in person but you left way before your time. It feels like I have known you for a very long time but it will never be long enough. So until we meet again, I will be remembering you. I will be remembering your bubbly, fun and happy nature. I will never forget your nonsense blabbering and I feel that there is just so much about you that I will miss.

You have left for almost 2 weeks now, but it all still seems so unreal to me. I really miss you and until we meet again, I truly pray that you are in a better place now. You are deeply missed, my friend.

Wong May Yue, Sandra

1988-2010

The bright light that never fades